Through heartfelt, honest, and transparent lyrics, Charli xcx proposes a forced pause that invites us to question who we truly are.
"Do I want to make music?" or "Maybe this is it" reflect some of the thoughts the 33-year-old artist is going through, prompting a profound reflection on her personal and emotional journey.
Has she perhaps been swept away by the whirlwind of fame, constantly playing a role that distances her from her true self?
"Camera" by Charli xcx.
Conceptually, it's an audiovisual piece that, in a single, uncut scene, seeks to portray the devastating pressure of performing in front of the cameras when you're crumbling inside. Charli XCX gives us a moment to think, "Who am I without all this acting?", displacing the unsustainable desire to always be doing and being for others.
Charli xcx. Our Saturday music video. (Official Music Video). METALOCUS MUSIC PROJECT.
Credits.-
Director.- Aidan Zamiri.
DOP.- Stuart Winecoff.
Production Company.- Object & Animal.
Executive Producer.- Morgan Clement.
Producer.- Jacob Swan Hyam.
Production Manager.- Fatima Zaman.
Production Coordinators.- Jess Glaus and Sara Andersson.
Director's Assistant.- Max Gabbay.
Post Producer: Harvey Moore.
O&A Runner.- Loui Underwood.
1st AD.- Rose Lucas.
2nd AD.- Jess Lee and Cairn McKenna.
3rd AD.- Alishia Shaw.
Runner.- Matt Chandler, Oscar Maher, Ana Muether.
Production Runner.- Collette Burke, Miles Lacey.
Location Manager.- Jacques Groenewald.
Location Assistant.- Josh Yudkin.
Editor.- Neal Farmer.
Assistant Editor.- Otis Tree.
Colourist.- Dante Pasquinelli, Ethos Studio.
VFX.- Corduroy Studio.
Sound.- Raphaël Ajuelos, Concret Form.
Steadicam.- Derek Walker.
1st AC.- Merritt Gold.
Clapper Loader.- Princess Jiyobe.
Camera Trainee.- Seth McNamara Waddington.
Video Playback.- Nick Forrester.
Gaffer.- Marco Di Giulio.
Key Grip.- Rob Barlow.
2nd Grip.- Sean Duffy and Ed Livesey.
Electrician.- Chris Pohl, Joe Fletcher, Jack Gunesh, Edd Bishop, Bruce Magahy, Yehhtoo Love, Matthew Rainger, Zach Kassapi.
Rigger.- Chris Gough, Simon Mahoney.
Sound Playback.- Anthony Leung.
Sound Recordist.- Rashad Omar.
Boom Op.- Adam Chestnutt, Daniel Leigh.
Production Designer.- Emma Roach.
Art Director.- Joseph Burke.
3D Artist.- Rhys Floyd.
Set Dec.- Roisin Jenner and Johanna Currie.
Carpenter / Set Dec.- Angus Whitehorn.
SFX Supervisor.- Stuart Heath.
Floor Supervisor.- Tom Rasburn.
Senior Tech.- Ian Corbould, Jonathon Bullock.
SFX Trainee.- Evie Heath.
Stunt Coordinator.- Andy Wareham.
Artist Stylist.- Ben.
Artist Styling Assistant.- Keisha Adams, Caitriona Oladapo.
Artist Hair Stylist.- Benjamin David.
Artist Make-Up Artist.- Ana Takahashi.
Artist Make-Up Assistant.- Chloé Palmer.
Artist Tailor.- Chloe Cammidge.
Artist Nail Tech.- Emily Rose Lansley.
Costume Designert.- Sophie O’Neill.
Stylist Assistant.- Ashleigh Lennox, Sekina Baker, Katarzyna Nozka, Martha Waters.
Make-Up Artist.- Lisa Mustafa.
Make-Up Assistant.- Katy Brown, Keeley Ridgewell.
Management.- Sam Pringle, Twiggy Rowley, Brandon Creed.
Creative Director.- Imogene Strauss.
Photo/BTS.- Lea Garn, Romy Gavras.
BTS/Doc Team: Loïc Prigent, Clément Duché, Albert Oziouls.
Label.- Atlantic Records.
Atlantic Creative.- Caroline DeFranco.
Talent Driver.- Moh (Select Cars).
Dining Bus (Base).- Paul Haddok.
Wardrobe Splitter (Base).- Nigel Page.
Winnebago 1 (Set).- Steve Chandler.
Winnebago 2 (Set).- Wally Smart.
School Room (Set).- Savanna Ball.
Honey Wagon (Set).- Sharon Brixton.
Production Splitter.- Mike Daniels.
4x4 Flatbed Truck.- Rodney Dewinter.
Camera Truck.- Miles Alltoft.
Security.- Greenscreen Security.
Casting.- Kharmel Cochrane Casting.
Director (Cast).- Juan Echenique.
DOP (Cast).- Sandip Ghattaora.
Gaffer (Cast).- Curtis Angus.
1st AD (On Camera Cast).- Chris Kelly.
2nd AD (Cast).- JD Hunt.
3rd AD (Cast).- Nynya Martin.
1st AC (On Camera Cast).- James Smith.
2nd AC (On Camera Cast).- Henry Vinten.
Script Supervisor (Cast).- Taru Sinclair.
Medic (Cast).- Rich Allen.
Stunt Coordinator (Cast).- Russell Barnett.
Stunt Person 1 (On Camera Cast).- Johnny Mortimore.
Stunt Person 2 (On Camera Cast).- Douglas Robson.
Runner 1 (Cast).- Cesar Perugini.
Runner 2 (Cast).- Sean Lawrence.
Runner 3 (Cast).- Morgan Smith.
Runner 4 (Cast).- Natasha Fossemo.
Runner 5 (Cast).- Ella-Mae Auston.
Runner 6 (Cast).- Chas Appeti.
Art Dep (Cast).- Zafer Alpat.
Art Dep Assist (Cast).- Lucy Stephens.
Wardrobe Assist (Cast).- Koz.
VC Stand-In.- Nuri Koseoglu.
CH Stand-In.- Emma Williams.
Lyrics.-
It makes me wanna throw my life away
All the music, all the people
Not a single kiss goodbye
Your French exit, chase the stars
Yeah, the ones in your eyes
But let's be honest, I'm talkin' 'bout the ones on the pavement
'Cause that look, it's a bullet
It makes me question what I'm doin'
Do I wanna make music? Am I being fuckin' stupid
If I try to be a girl on the screen when I'm turnin' thirty-four?
But all I know is how it makes me feel
And it makes me feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes you feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes me feel how it makes me feel
When the camera's on
It makes me wanna throw my life away
'Cause I feel different on the mark
Somethin' new and undiscovered
And somethin' kind of violent
Darin' to fail and being ugly
I'm inspired and alive (yeah, I'm ready)
'Cause all I know is how it makes me feel
And it makes me feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes you feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes me feel how it makes me feel
When the camera's on
Yeah, it makes me feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes me feel how it makes me feel
Yeah, it makes me feel how it makes me feel
When the camera's on
I can be anything that I wanna be
And I can feel the things I don't normally feel
Yeah, I can finally be totally honest
It's like I'm looking down the barrel of a gun (fucking shoot me)
I don't feel embarrassed even if I suck
I'm always cravin' an experience that feels dangerous
And maybe this is it, maybe it's what I need
'Cause it's the only way to feel like I'm not actually me
